I noticed that the asteroid Chiron is getting very close to forming an exact square with my natal sun, so I had a look at “Café Astrology” to see what sort of short-form interpretation the site had to offer. I typically prefer to visit “Café Astrology” over most other astrology websites because the author of the posts quickly gets to the point. If nothing else, the site is succinct. Of course, it also contains a wealth of knowledge. I wouldn’t visit it if I didn’t like it.
For that reason, I was surprised to discover a long-winded passage that includes a blanket interpretation of some aspects including conjunctions, squares and oppositions, stating that those aspects . . . “act to uncover fears and wounds with regards to our ego and our life path. We discover our ‘weaknesses’ in the foundation of our very identity. Insecurities, fears, perceived failings, and unresolved issues about our sense of purpose in life are uncovered. In some cases, women experiencing these transits deal with issues surrounding their fathers and his effect on their identity and adult relationships with men. Our creativity, self-expression, and independence are questioned.
Look for Leo in your natal chart, as the Sun rules Leo, and this is an area of life that will be directly affected by the transit (in addition to the houses where the transit actually takes place).
Initially, circumstances in your life tend to make you feel weakened and ineffective in the world. There can be a feeling that you just don’t have the courage to make it on your own, or to express yourself creatively. As the transit progresses, you begin to gather the courage to express yourself and your needs, and your doing so may surprise everyone around you! Chiron acts to pull up courage and bravery, but your initial expression of this newfound bravery may be so abrupt and unrefined that you seem to be acting completely out of character. During this period, you come face to face with patterns that you have been repeating in your life, especially with regards to relationships with men (and/or your father figure), addictions, and co-dependency issues. Relationships with men that leave you feeling insecure or ineffective may be dealt with now. Addictions that undermine you may need to be dealt with. You may need to deal with your own wounded pride.
These transits may bring ‘teachers’ into your life in some manner. With the Sun, these people who are very willing to offer you advice are often males. With hard aspects, you need to be careful about blindly following someone’s advice at this time, simply because you are feeling weakened and in need of help. Later, you may resent the fact that you didn’t stand up for yourself. You are bound to open yourself up to an entirely different perspective on your life, but be careful not to fall into the role of victim and let someone else ‘save’ you. By transit’s end, you will have uncovered your own power and effectiveness, and the decisions you made following someone else’s advice may not look so good anymore!
Very commonly with these transits, you deal with others doubting your character, and you could feel like you’re forced into a position of proving yourself. This may take place on either professional or personal levels. Your first reaction is to do just that–prove yourself to others. However, you eventually realize how fruitless this effort is. Others are likely to interpret this effort as weakness, and this can only exacerbate the problem. Eventually, you need to learn to stand up for yourself by not falling into a pattern where you are essentially ‘sucking up’ to people. Ideally, you recognize that stepping back and letting your character speak for itself will earn you far more respect, as well as self-respect. In fact, self-respect is what this transit is truly about.”
That’s a lot to unpack! First of all, I would love to believe that my fear of rejection (a facet of my character that has essentially stopped me from pursuing creative writing projects), is something that I am on the cusp of resolving. My third-house sun has made me into a communicator, even though I have been reluctant to share my voice with others for quite some time. Losing a bunch of writing jobs probably left a bigger scar on my psyche than I have been willing to admit.
Nevertheless, the one line that sticks with me is the one that states “you could feel like you’re forced into a position of proving yourself.” I always feel like that, and I already recognize that I do. It would be nice if I could just allow my actions speak for themselves because I honestly know that they do. I don’t ever want to find myself “sucking up” to people.
It’s something I’m going to need to pay attention to while this long-lasting aspect is influencing my behavior. My Chiron return was profound, so I can appreciate the asteroid’s importance in my horoscope (I was born during a near-exact Chiron/Pluto opposition). In the meantime, I’m going to dig around the internet to see if any other sites provide a more focused prediction for this transit. I doubt that I’ll learn much more than what I already know (and what the “Café Astrology” has taught me), but in the spirit of Chiron himself, I ought to recognize that none of us ever stop learning — even old guys like me.