Star Struck Style

I was just looking at my chart, wondering when Saturn would be leaving my fourth house and entering my fifth. The event happens in about thirteen months from now, and — lucky for me — the ringed planet will not reenter my fourth house again during its subsequent retrograde cycle in 2023.

I’m quite eager to enter this new phase, even if it doesn’t happen for more than a year. I’m not only feeling stuck inside my house lately, but I’m also feeling stuck inside my head. “Café Astrology” alludes to my current condition in its interpretation of the transit:

“The transit of Saturn to the fourth house marks a time of considerable inner ‘re-working’. In terms of outward signs of achievement, this transit may be the most unremarkable of all the Saturn transits.

However, near the end of the transit, and certainly later than that, you will recognize this stage as a critical one in which you made some life-changing personal and psychological advances and developments. During this stage, you are working on solidifying your identity, exploring your roots (where you came from), so that when Saturn begins its transit through the fifth house, you will be ready to differentiate yourself from others and embark on some important work on your ego.

For now, however, you will face issues surrounding your attachments to the past. Sometimes this manifests as literal re-organization of your home. Moving house is not associated with this transit as it would if, for example, Uranus was the transiting planet. If moves are made, you might encounter some resistance in yourself. This is not a time when you feel particularly brave in the outer world. However, reorganization in your home, and more importantly, in your soul, embodies the true nature of this transit.

Many will go through a major ‘spring cleaning’ inside. Limitations that came from early family conditioning will be brought to the fore. At first, there may be some frustration with your life to date, and how you have limited your opportunities because of early conditioning. A feeling of being alone and unsupported in life may dominate the early stages of this transit. Sometimes, delays and slowdowns are experienced in the areas of health, mobility, and career. As Saturn moves closer to the fifth house, a feeling of some kind of mastery will empower you.”

There really is not a better word to describe this transit than “unremarkable.” I’ve been publishing posts about feeling a lack of passion for anything for quite some time, and I attribute much of that to Saturn’s current position in my chart. That’s why I’m eager to enter the new phase that “Café Astrology” describes in this prediction:

“With Saturn moving through the house of creative power, you may feel limited initially by a lack of internal ‘spark’ or ‘spunk’. How you entertain yourself, how you have fun, and issues surrounding how you manage your ego are now coming up for ‘inspection’.

By the end of the transit of Saturn to the fifth house, ideally, you will have a stronger sense of purpose, and a re-worked ego. What makes you unique? How do you handle pride? What are your creative talents? Have you worked hard enough to feel good about ‘playing hard’? These are issues you will face during the course of this transit. By the time Saturn enters the sixth house, you should have a solid sense of what makes you different than others, and a rather concrete belief in your own creative talents.

Many people go through a period of re-evaluation of their talents — how they have perhaps wasted them to date, and how they can express themselves in a more practical, useful manner.

The fifth house is also associated with love and attention received from others. Issues you will face during this time include how ‘deserving’ you are of special attention from others.

Initially, you may feel unloved, and perhaps somewhat neglected or ignored. As you learn the lessons of this transit, you should learn to love yourself and take pride in yourself. Looking outside of yourself for ‘ego strokes’ (whether through romance or other such ‘applause’) may prove to be fruitless. You will learn through the course of this transit to depend on yourself and to take pride in yourself for what you really are, not only how others see you.”

Of course, every time I read the words “learning to love yourself,” I think of Whitney Houston and “The Greatest Love of All.” I don’t know if need to love myself any more than I already do; I believe I’m pretty terrific. What I do need to do is figure out a way to showcase my talents and promote myself like I did back when I was almost famous. The past several years have made me so disdainful toward people whose only talent is selling themselves online that I’ve forgotten how to sell myself. I haven’t exactly done myself any favors by becoming so insular — at least not in a professional sense. I can’t dispute how Saturn’s transit through my fourth house has helped me to understand myself in the way that a psychologist understands his or her patient, but I also can’t dispute how “unremarkable” it makes me feel.

I want to feel remarkable again. This shift in the stars can’t come soon enough!