So, I was just looking at my chart, trying to get an idea of when Saturn was going to get off my back. It’s currently about half-a-degree away from my natal sun, just having completed its retrograde pass over that point.
The conjunction has been tough. I’m usually quite resilient where Saturn is concerned because I’m a pretty patient guy and I typically don’t mind when things slow down so I can suss them out. But this retrograde pass has been one for the record books. I feel unlucky — as if nothing can go my way. That’s not a normal state of affairs for me. Every night I go to bed and thank my lucky stars for the life I’ve got, but that’s been difficult to do lately. I don’t ever want to feel like this again. Unfortunately, I have to deal with it again when Saturn makes its final conjunction with my sun around Halloween.
Here’s how Cafe Astrology describes the transit:
“When Saturn transits conjunct the Sun, our level of maturity, realism, and responsibility come up for inspection. The goals we have set for ourselves, as well as our very character, are now re-evaluated for strength and purpose, and tested against reality. Saturn has a way of slowing down our life, as if it is forcing us to take a really good look at it. Because the Sun rules our vitality, we may feel that our energy is somewhat depleted. We begin to feel our age, and the pressures that may go along with it. We may feel alone and un-parented or unsupported. We may be assessing our achievements to date, and we are extremely sensitive to whether or not we have been recognized on a professional level as well as on a personal level. Whether our talents and abilities, and our unique individuality and character, are recognized by others becomes especially important to us. We tend to be self-critical and/or we feel that others do not support or recognize us enough. This process is necessary, as we are learning to see ourselves more realistically — without rose-colored glasses — so that we can move forward with a stronger sense of purpose. This may be a time when we cut out projects or possibly relationships that are no longer working for us, or that have been built on weak foundations. We are essentially conserving our energy for those things that do work for us, and we work on building and strengthening them.”
That all makes perfect sense to me. And to be honest, I don’t have a problem with being “tested” by the cosmos occasionally because I do believe that it strengthens my resolve. However, what I noticed about the third pass of Saturn over my sun on Halloween is that it also occurs on the day that Mars forms a conjunction with my ascendant and Jupiter forms an opposition with my natal Jupiter.
That’s a whole lot of bad things happening in my chart all at once. I’m not sure if I’m going to be the Michael Myers in this situation, or the Laurie Strode. All I know is that I’m looking forward to this horror show ending. I can’t remember when I’ve looked ahead and discovered a more gruesome forecast for myself.
Maybe I’ll just check myself into a mental institution until this is all over . . .