Before I decide what to post here each day, I scroll through the archives on this site and the other blogs I’ve written in the past. I don’t want to be redundant, and I don’t want to contradict myself.
Curiously, last year’s post on this blog was devoted to Jackie Stallone. I like Jackie Stallone, and I often praise her for writing one of the best popular astrology books ever written: “Starpower.”
The strange thing about the post — and my habit of blogging in general — is that I did what I always do while discussing Jackie Stallone: I went off on a tangent about myself. I declared that I was going to follow in Stallone’s path and stop giving a rat’s ass about what anyone thought about me and my unorthodox career path.
Of course, I’ve gone through countless moments of panic and self-doubt since I published that post, but I’ve also come full circle in the past year and really embraced the idea that I can make a career out of this.
Yet what really struck me about my post from a year ago is the general sentiment I expressed. Why am I feeling almost exactly the same as I was feeling on November 29, 2016? I looked at where the planets were in the sky last year to see if I could draw any parallels between their positions then and now.
Well, Mercury is in almost the exact same place: conjunct my natal Mercury. The four outermost planets are all in the same signs they were in, too. The biggest difference between then and now is that Pluto was sitting right on top of my sun last year (a once-in-a-lifetime occurrence), and Saturn is sitting right on top of my Mercury this year (something that only happens every twenty-eight or twenty-nine years).
Last year at this time, I declared my intention to transform my life — the Plutonian thing to do. This year, I’m dealing with alternating bouts of self-doubt and self-confidence. Earlier this week, I posted this passage from Cafe Astrology explaining the effects of Saturn’s transit to my natal Mercury:
This is not the best time for presenting your ideas, as you might be finding that others are not supportive of them. However, it’s an excellent period for reviewing, reassessing, perfecting, and improving ideas, projects, skills, and communication so that in the future, you will be more confident about all of these things.
After reading last year’s declaration to do better, I am feeling more confident. I’m also feeling more confident because I committed my thoughts to this blog. I may have had the intention of sending birthday wishes to Jackie Stallone, but my stream-of-consciousness blathering at the time was quite perceptive. Now I realize that I’m in a very similar position, only this time I’ve got a book for sale and a propitious Saturn ingress in my near future.
I also realize that without growing a year older, I would never have developed this sort of perspective. I am thankful that I can look back at where the planets were to relate them to my own experiences. Astrology is for the old. You don’t get see this sort of stuff when you haven’t been around the block a few times.
It makes me wonder what sort of stories Jackie Stallone could tell me.