Star Struck Style

I was just sitting at my computer trying to figure out the direction I would like to orient myself tomorrow. The new moon in Pisces occurs in my fifth house. A week from tomorrow, Saturn will also move into my fifth house. Between these two events, I’m really going to have to do some serious work on my ego.

The funny thing about that is that I know I have a huge ego. In fact, I’ve blogged about it incessantly. Just this past November, I published a post titled “Feedback” where I wrote the following:

“With three planets transiting my second house at the moment, I’ve discovered how much I rely upon positive feedback from others in order to perform my duties at work in an exceptional manner.

When I’m receiving negative feedback (or even neutral feedback), I immediately question the source of the feedback. That’s my defensive Cancer moon at work. For that reason, working with people who demand perfection from others while never demanding it from themselves can put me in a no-win situation. I don’t take criticism that I don’t deserve. I’m a Capricorn, not a scapegoat.

On the other hand, I thrive on positive reinforcement. What’s more, I’m quite gracious and humble when I’m rewarded with positive feedback. I’m not the sort of person who displays my trophies for all the world to see, despite my enormous ego. I’m thrilled that I can learn things like this about myself at my advanced age. I’m also thrilled that this facet of my character can be so well-explained by the combination of my Capricorn sun, my Cancer moon and my Libra ascendant.”

Right now, I’m experiencing exactly the same issue I discussed in that post: working with individuals who demand perfection from others while never demanding it from themselves. Of course, I’ve been questioning the source of the feedback, and that has been creating a tremendous source of tension for me and many others in my orbit.

With the new moon arriving in my fifth house just ahead of Saturn’s ingress into the same part of my chart, I am not expecting my egomania to abate. However, I do believe that I can look at my current situation from another perspective. The fifth house can be a very selfish place, and perhaps I need to be more selfish. The battle I’m fighting right now is for the good of everyone. Maybe I just need to worry about myself. What if I just extricated myself from the situation entirely? I like my job, but I don’t believe that it is worth it for me to be the person who sacrifices himself for the common good. I can just choose to do something else.

If that is what it is going to take to feed my ego in the not-so-distant future, that’s what I’m going to. I’m better than this situation that I’m in at the moment, and that will likely be even more obvious to me once these planetary events shine a light on my fifth house.

The stars are telling me to look out after myself, and when the universe gives you feedback, you ought to listen.