I’ve had a weird couple of days. I’ve been looking back at old blogs posts that I’ve written just be sure that I haven’t been discussing people that I have profiled in the past. Then it dawned on me: why do I care if I’m being redundant? Who is actually reading my blog?
This morning, for example, I noticed that I had published a post about RuPaul’s birthday on this day last year. After explaining the intricacies of his chart, I wrote the following:
“It’s obvious to me that he’s quite a deep thinker, but I thank my lucky stars that he lets the more superficial aspects of his character shine through on “RuPaul’s Drag Race.” It’s the funniest show on TV and I’ve never missed an episode. Without his Gemini rising, I believe we’d be watching something completely depressing, like “Sylvia Plath’s Drag Race.” It just wouldn’t be the same.”
That last line brought a big smile to my face. At least I’m making someone happy!
Anyway, my point is this. What I do is a labor of love. Unfortunately, toiling away in obscurity takes a toll on me. Lately, it’s been bothering me more than ever. Yet I can see the light at the end of the tunnel because I know that Mars is moving out of my actual twelfth house this coming Saturday, and that Saturn is moving out of my solar twelfth house on December 20. Having the two so-called “malefics” transiting these shadowy parts of my chart has been difficult. I don’t think I’m depressed, but I do believe that I have been uncharacteristically paranoid about my prospects.
But I’m going to keep plugging away. I’m good at what I do, and I don’t have to fake it until I make it like 99% of the people in this business because I am the real deal. I’m not going to be another Valentina, blubbering on stage because the world has just discovered that I’m a fraud. If fifty-seven-year-old RuPaul has taught me anything, it is that perseverance pays off. He once said “When you become the image of your own imagination, it’s the most powerful thing you could ever do.”
I already know I’m a star. I just have to figure out how to prove it to the rest of you assholes.