Mars entered my twelfth house a couple of days ago. I usually don’t mind the introspective turn I take when the red planet enters that sector of my horoscope. However, yesterday was annoying. The sun was also opposing my natal Chiron, and I spent the day feeling victimized by the actions of others. That is not a normal state of affairs for me.
“The Dark Pixie Astrology,” a site I like for its succinct descriptions of transits and progressions, interprets Mars’ transit through the twelfth house as follows:
“When transit Mars is in your 12th house, you’re driven to retreat and reflect. Being around other people can be draining to you right now, and you prefer being alone. Working alone is when you have the best energy, and you want to be out of the spotlight and working behind the scenes where no one will notice you. Your dreams become more prominent, and you can have some wild dreams, find yourself daydreaming more, or conversely, have trouble sleeping. Your imagination can surge, and this can be a creative time. Your intuition can surge as well, though you may not be consciously aware of that. Make sure you give yourself plenty of time to rest, replenish, and recover so you’re ready for when transit Mars enters your 1st house and life gets hectic.”
My workplace was already hectic yesterday, and all I could do was think about how much I wanted to hide away in a back office where no one could bug me. I keep getting promised time off of the floor, and it never actually happens because someone else always drops the ball. It’s becoming exhausting.
The problem isn’t that I can’t keep up with the amount of work I have to accomplish. It’s that I sometimes take it personally when people take advantage of my work ethic. It’s a recurring theme in my life, and that theme is often revealed when the swift-moving planets make unfavorable aspects to Chiron. That’s what happened yesterday.
On the bright side, I didn’t drop the ball. I got through the day like I get through every other day — like a fucking adult. Despite having a star-crossed day, I didn’t make anyone else’s day lousier.
Anyway, that annual aspect between the sun and Chiron is behind me. Perhaps now I can focus upon a more-positive manifestation of Mars’ ingress through this part of my chart instead of being simply annoyed by it. Self-reflection and introspection shouldn’t really have such a negative connotation, but for someone like me who loathes self-pitying behavior, looking inward is a bit of slippery slope. It doesn’t have to be. I need to remind myself that there is nothing negative about this or any other cosmic cycle unless I tell myself that it is going to be a negative cycle.
I’m not going to do that to myself.