I’ve had a bad week. Nothing bad has happened to me, but I’ve been annoyed by almost everything I encounter, so that makes it a bad week in my book. I might not be the most upbeat person in the world, but I’m not typically such a grouch.
I’m sure there is an astrological connection. Mercury turns retrograde later today while sitting on the axis formed by my natal Mercury/Jupiter conjunction. Wednesday’s eclipse was minutes away from my nodal axis. Saturn also started its retrograde cycle earlier this week just minutes away from my natal Venus.
The latter transit is the one that is going to linger the longest, so I decided to take a good look at it just a moment ago on astro.com. The passage that describes the transit is titled “Harsh Realizations.” And if the title wasn’t discouraging enough, the prediction itself is quite brutal:
“This influence will have a strong effect on your relationships with others. Relationships that are solidly based will go through a period of testing and examination during which you and your loved ones and friends will become increasingly concerned about what is valid between you. A weak and unstable relationship will go through the same process, but you are more likely to conclude that it is not worth preserving. Consequently, at this time the relationships that have no purpose or that have outlived their purpose in your life will be cut off. Often you will be reluctant to let go of them.
Even in the best of circumstances you are likely to withdraw from others. During this time you have to evaluate who you are, what your individuality consists of and how all of these fit into your relationships with other people, particularly loved ones. You may come to some harsh realizations about your relationships, and even those that you thought were quite good may have to be given up. But you can be sure that any relationship that comes through this period in good shape is very real and important to you.
New relationships with a strongly ‘fated’ quality may also come into your life now, which will have very profound significance for you in about fourteen years.
This is definitely a time to be conservative in financial matters and not take on any new financial obligations, for you may have trouble meeting your existing ones. On the other hand, this is an excellent time for firming up and organizing the financial structure of your life.
In general you should look upon this transit as a time for withdrawing into yourself with respect to others and to material possessions. This withdrawal will enable you to get a clearer idea of what and who you are, so that your future relationships with people and possessions will be more solidly based on reality and therefore more reliable and useful.”
I’ve already discussed this transit on this blog, but now that Saturn has begun its retrograde cycle, I cannot understate the way it seemed to slap me across the face this week.
The last thing I ever want to do is to feel sorry for myself — or to make anyone else feel sorry for me! However, this is tough. I just need to get through it. Thankfully, there are far more good things happening in my horoscope than bad things over the next several months. And when this transit briefly reoccurs in January, it won’t be compounded by a lot of other bullshit.
Thank heavens for small miracles . . .