By the middle of this week, transiting Saturn will have moved past the midpoint between by natal Mars and Venus conjunction. Two weeks after that, the ringed planet will conjoin my natal Venus before it speeds away from this profound point in my horoscope.
At the moment, the influence of the planet is oppressive. With my Capricorn sun sign, I get Saturn. I typically have no problem with the way it slows down the pace. My problem with the planet is the way it acts as a wet blanket on my sense of self-expression. I’m feeling that right now. I want to “bust out” from underneath its weight, but I feel as if I’m struggling. It makes me want to conserve my energy and wait for a more opportune time to break free — a sensible strategy, if you ask me. Still, I feel as if my timing will never be “just right.”
I had a rough time with Saturn conjoining my third-house sun a couple of years ago, and the oppressive effect the aspect had on my creativity. Venus is my ruling planet, so I can understand why I’m currently feeling as if I’m under the thumb of forces I can barely comprehend. But this conjunction is different. It’s in my fourth house, and it makes me want to look back to my past to find something to blame for the way I’m feeling right now. Figuratively, I feel trapped. The fact that I live in a place where I’m virtually trapped by the winter weather doesn’t help.
Thankfully, this is going to be a short-lived aspect. By the end of this month, I’m going to be able to put this all in my past, and now that Jupiter has entered my fifth house, maybe I’ll be able to focus on what’s ahead of me. In the meantime, I’m just going to have to wait for this wet blanket to dry out enough for me to be able to wiggle my way out from underneath it. On the bright side, today’s new moon in my third house has me feeling brainy and articulate, even if I have no idea how to use my brain at the moment.
I guess it’s not a bad way to start the year because I know it’s all uphill from here, right?