I’m a little restless. As I noted in yesterday’s post, I’ve got transiting Mercury opposing my natal Mercury which is making it difficult for me to not fly off in several directions all at once.
However, I had a deeper look into my chart this morning so that I could make some plans for the future once this COVID-19 thing starts to abate. What I’ve discovered is that it is very unlikely that I will return to the same routine that I’ve had for what seems like decades now.
Of course, predicting something like that isn’t really a stretch of the imagination considering what is going on in the world at the moment. But accepting the change is difficult for an old goat like me. Capricorn natives aren’t necessarily known for their adaptability. Yes, we can be surefooted when we encounter unfamiliar terrain, but that doesn’t stop us from tumbling down the mountain every now and then. That’s why we like to be able to see a familiar pathway ahead of us. That’s why we don’t give up on ourselves when we’ve hit rock bottom and the only way to go is up.
I don’t really feel as if I’ve hit rock bottom. However, I do feel as if I’m never going to be able to return to the routine I had before the COVID-19 crisis. Curiously, my horoscope is telling me the same thing. Right now I’ve got Pluto hovering around my IC, ready to slip back into my third house. In fact, this current cycle doesn’t even begin to come to a resolution until the last couple of weeks of the year.
At the same time, my progressed MC is on the same axis as my near-exact natal Pluto/Chiron opposition. I didn’t really figure that into this equation until this morning. Now that I see it, I can also see how unlikely it will be that I will be back on the same schedule anytime soon.
So, I’m just going to have to live with this so-called “new normal” and find a new routine once I pick myself up out of the rubble. Hanging on to the idea that any changes to my schedule will destroy me is allowing one of the worst qualities of my sun sign to shine through. I’m not going to let that happen. I’m not going to be that Capricorn who refuses to evolve. Pluto is actively trying to transform my way of thinking right now, and I would be a fool to ignore its lesson.