Yesterday, I discussed the first of the three major generational aspects that are getting close to being exact in my horoscope. Today, I’m going to discuss the next aspect to occur: transiting Neptune conjunct natal Chiron.
The asteroid is only four minutes away from being in an exact opposition with my natal Pluto, so this is an aspect that will happen concurrently with transiting Neptune’s opposition to that planet.
Astrodienst describes the event as follows:
“It is possible that psychological wounds you have been carrying since your childhood or adolescence could now be healed. If you now feel depressed or confused, this could be caused by being brought into contact with a deeply internalized pain from your past. You might react in an extremely sensitive and touchy way to present situations without being conscious of why you are doing so. Suppressing any feelings of inadequacy and shame will not be helpful, and attempts to cover things up or run away could only exacerbate the problem. What is important now is that you learn to accept such unpleasant emotions, while admitting to having your own weaknesses.
This is a good time to be your own best therapist. Learn to listen to your inner voice which is best able to reveal your true calling, or cast your mind back to those people who somehow disappointed or betrayed you in the past. This will enable you to consider such events from your present perspective. An unconscious attitude of denial resulting from past disappointments might now be causing many of your present difficulties. It may be that the only way you felt able to “punish” parents, teachers, friends or former partners for their mistakes was either by subtly ignoring or refusing to recognize any demands they made. If you continue to react like this you could end up harming yourself. Turning to your intuition with the aid of your inner voice can now help you to rid yourself of all the false or irrelevant structures in your life.”
In light of yesterday’s post, I believe that the important part of this passage is the final sentence. The most important part of this current cycle seems to be a recognition that there are “false or irrelevant” structures in my life. With Libra as my rising sign and Chiron in Pisces, I have been far too concerned about pleasing people, doing the right thing, and being recognized for those efforts.
However, as I noted yesterday, I’ve come to realize that there are selfish people in the world who wouldn’t help me off the ground if I fell down, especially if giving me a hand meant giving up a moment of their time. While I wasn’t brought up in a terribly religious family, I was brought up with a moral compass that always pointed in the direction of goodness. That made me believe in the notion that you reap what you sow. Although that hasn’t changed (I’m still a big believer in Karma), I’m finally starting to understand that the most irrelevant structure in my life is the idea that I need to set an example for everyone.
There is no point in proving my worth to the unworthy. There is no point in trying to help those who wouldn’t help me. There is no point in feeling bad when I can’t help those who won’t help themselves. I’ve wasted too much of my life trying to convince those without conscience that I am both someone that they count on and someone that they can look up to. In my endeavors to live up to my own moral code, I’ve allowed soulless creeps to take advantage of me.
Of course, realizing these things about myself doesn’t mean that I’m going to abandon my principles. It just means that I’m not going beat myself up when I say no to people who would take advantage of this facet of my character.
I’ve felt this change coming for a while now. To be honest, it’s been a liberating experience that I may not have recognized before my Chiron return a few years ago. I believe that astrological event made me more compassionate toward people who deserve my compassion. I don’t want to come off as smug and morally superior when I point out these changes, but in the age of Donald Trump, it’s difficult not to put myself up on pedestal.
I’m fine with feeling like this, anyway. I’ve always said that modesty is for nuns . . .