Star Struck Style

Transiting Uranus is exactly square with my natal Mars tomorrow for the first time in my adult life. The aspect will reoccur on Christmas Eve during Uranus’ upcoming retrograde cycle and again a day or two before Valentine’s Day.

My daily horoscope on “Astrodienst” offers the following advice:

“Watch out for impulsive actions, rash decisions and other actions that may have sudden, unexpected consequences and undesirable results in the future. You may feel that your ego is at stake in some way and that you have to assert yourself now regardless of the risk of getting involved in an accident.

There may be considerable tension with others who seem to be in your way all the time. It may be difficult to avoid disputes and “blowing up” at others. This influence challenges your sense of security and just how much you believe you can assert yourself. The more insecure you are, the more likely you are to do something rash as a way of saying to the world that you are a person to be reckoned with. Authority figures who limit your freedom of movement and self-expression are very likely targets for your rebellion, which may be through petty acts or through larger actions that could get you into difficulties. It is not that you are wrong in wanting to assert yourself, but that the ways you choose to do this are not very well considered or effective. Do what you must, but act with a little discretion.

Quite often the effects of this influence are more unconscious; that is, you will not be aware of the feeling described above. This can lead to unconscious eruptions of the energy that can be quite disruptive.

The only real answer to this influence is to try to achieve some security about who you are and what you are doing. Then you will not feel such a great need to break free and take rash and ill-considered actions. You may still feel obliged to do something that is a significant break from your normal routine, but it will not be so destructive.”

While I don’t feel like punching holes in walls just yet, I know that the underlying frustration I’ve been feeling since the pandemic began is still bubbling below the surface. Thankfully, I’ve been able to manage it. I believe that my only vice has been trolling the Twitter pages of Donald Trump’s minions. Sure, it’s petty, but if the alternative is “blowing up” at someone I actually like, then I’ll take it.

This is an especially rare aspect. I was eleven years old the last time it happened. I can’t remember if I was especially angry at that age. I do remember reading about punk rock and the Sex Pistols just as they were being dropped from their record label for being too controversial, and that is when I started to become fascinated with Britain’s “alternative” culture.

Anyway, I’m pretty sure that almost everything that is making me angry right now has a lot more to do with me than with anyone else, and that is probably why I haven’t punched anything. I have been very diligent when it comes to managing my anger, choosing to internalize it in an attempt to resolve it. I suppose that is the one good thing about having Jupiter, Saturn and Pluto all transiting my fourth house simultaneously; I feel as is I’ve been on a deserted island for months now. But it was a self-imposed exile that helped me cope with everything going on around me. With Jupiter entering my fifth house today, I am expecting to enter a more extroverted phase of my life. Hopefully, getting “out there” won’t put me in places where I want to punch people instead of walls, but it is a possibility.

Whatever happens, I’m going to have to live with it through July of next year. And once Uranus moves out of orb from this square to my natal Mars, it moves into a square with my natal Venus. I guess I should figure out what that means before it sneaks up on me . . .