On Friday night, I sent an email to my manager at work to let her know that I am no longer willing to tolerate the chaos that ensues when she leaves us understaffed. Her perception of how the facility runs seems to be limited to the hours that she works, and she has a difficult time putting herself in the shoes of the people who pick up the slack when she’s not around.
Curiously, I published a post last year where I used the word “chaos” to describe exactly how I was feeling back then. What’s even weirder is that my Facebook memories reminded me that I have experienced similar feelings in the past at my former jobs at this exact time of year.
So what’s going on in my horoscope that is making me feel this way. The only annual aspect that happens like clockwork is the sun’s square to my natal Venus. I suppose that could explain things since Venus is my ruling planet and I possess a somewhat Venusian character that delights in harmonious circumstances.
I looked up the aspect on a couple of sites just to see how everyone else describes the transit. “Café Astrology” provided the following interpretation:
“You might be particularly irritated by others’ behavior now, but consider that problems encountered now could be a reflection of your own inner discontent. Do your best to control yearnings for more than what you have, and avoid overindulging or procrastinating. Disagreements that may crop up now tend to be about differences in principles or matters of personal style.”
I do agree that I am particularly irritable when this aspect occurs, but I’m not irritated by “differences in principles or matters of personal style.” I’m irritated by the chaotic environment others create when they refuse to understand that the world is a much bigger place than what they can see with their own eyes. Looking back at the digital diary I have created with this blog and my social media accounts, I’m reminded of how much I like to bring order to my environment and how much I resent people who invite chaos into my universe.
I once owned a book that described astrology through the lens of chaos theory. I wish that I had kept it because it basically explained everything to me. The link above states that “within the apparent randomness of chaotic complex systems, there are underlying patterns, interconnectedness, constant feedback loops, repetition, self-similarity, fractals, and self-organization.” That’s astrology in a nutshell, right? The macrocosm reflected in the microcosm, and vice versa.
Anyway, I’m glad that I recognized this recurring event in my chart. This square will form again six months from now, so I should probably see what happens when the sun is at war with Venus from my eighth house rather than my second house. I wonder if I’m similarly annoyed by the obliviousness of the people in my orbit in early May? That’s a question I should try to answer before I find myself in this position again. If there is an “underlying pattern” here, I need to find it.