Star Struck Style

Yesterday I published a post where I mentioned that the change in weather was going to allow me more time to focus upon the future. I was feeling happy and optimistic when I wrote it. Not long afterward, I walked to work and took in the first snowfall of the season. It was a lovely experience, and I believe it was good for my soul.

I view my time in nature that way. For someone who can be very superficial, I’m also very much in-tune with the world around me. I may have lost a little of that characteristic last winter when things got a little too dark for me. Curiously, my own horoscope on astro.com reminded me that my sense of ambition and my sense of well-being are connected to that more-superficial facet of my personality, while my actual experience is telling me that I’m happier when I “stop to smell the roses,” as the saying goes. Today’s passage describing Chiron’s square to my midheaven includes the following line:

“You may face difficulties and challenges, particularly if you have placed great emphasis on prestige, image and social success, without considering whether they truly reflect your inner nature.”

What’s interesting about this phase is that I’m not stressed out at all because I am being true to myself. I just spent the last few months reconnecting with the things that make me happy, including the world outside my door, and both my physical and mental health have returned to the place they were before they turned dark. Maybe I am going to be happy just being a guy who spends his free time growing flowers and feeding birds. Or maybe I’m going to be able to strike a balance between that part of my character and the part that makes me want to wear fancy clothes and shop in places where most people fear to tread.

I should be looking for more gainful employment right now, but I’m not sure that’s going to happen while the stars have me distracted by the notion that I need to repair the damage that I did to myself by working at a job I loathed. I’m still not over it — as this Chiron transit proves — but I’m getting there. In the meantime, I’m just going to allow myself to enjoy the world around me. As I already mentioned, being in nature is good for my soul. I need that inner peace more than I need money right now. By the time Jupiter conjoins my midheaven again next May (right around the time the trees in this part of the world blossom again), perhaps I’ll be in a place where I can reevaluate what the word “ambition” means to me. Until that happens, I just need to stop worrying about where I’m going and admit to myself that I am enjoying where I am.

This is fine . . .