Star Struck Style

A couple of weeks ago, someone asked me why I quit my full-time job. There are plenty of reasons why I quit (and I have already detailed most of them on this blog). However, I paused for a moment as I attempted to come up with just one word to encapsulate everything I felt about my former position. Eventually, I settled on the word “unrewarding” as the perfect description about why I resigned.

I haven’t changed my mind since I answered that question. In fact, I’ve embraced my response because the more I think about it, the more I am convinced that I was on a path that offered me nothing mentally, spiritually or physically. What’s more, the pay was terrible. I worked my ass off for peanuts.

Anyway, a new moon arrives in Virgo in a week from now: the second Virgo new moon in a row. As I prepare for the abundance that October’s stars promise me, I should take the opportunity to pause again as I reflect upon what might make me feel the opposite way in the future. “Café Astrology” describes the twelfth-house new moon as follows:

“This is a period of review, letting go, and recharging one’s spiritual and, by extension, physical ‘batteries’. Focus, now, is on fulfillment through service, empathy, and awareness of other’s needs; but it can also be a time of withdrawal and some sort of retreat in a social sense, depending on your personal and natural predisposition. Some kind of soul-searching is in order, and the urge to find some level of emotional peace of mind will be apparent. This is a more sensitive position of the New Moon, and it is best to find some sort of peace for the soul in preparation for the New Moon in the first house — a period that is more active and busy than this one.”

Recharging my batteries might not be necessary as I already have Mars transiting my first house. However, the “soul-searching” that this passage recommends might be something to focus upon while I look for a new direction to follow. What is going to make me feel “rewarded” in the future? Is it something that is more satisfying from a financial perspective? Is it something that makes me feel better physically? Spiritually? Mentally? All of the above?

I’m in no hurry to find out as I wait for the planets to move into positions that will favor a course correction, but I’m still a Capricorn who has a difficult time separating my financial well-being from any other definition of well-being. Yet this upcoming cycle may have much to teach me about where I can find “some sort of peace” in the meantime. I hope so! I still find myself panicking about my financial situation even though I took all the steps necessary to get my finances in order at the beginning of the year. I’m in a better position than I have been for as long as I can remember.

So, I’m going to try to figure out where this anxiety comes from once this new moon arrives. I don’t need it in my life. As the photo above suggests, I need to “think about things differently.” That’s a perfect way to find the “peace of mind” recommended in the forecast I posted above. I actually went and talked about my actual financial situation in order to fix it. Perhaps I should talk to someone about my imagined financial situation in this new phase of my life. That could be the thing that makes all the difference as I try to figure out what will inspire me to come up with a blog post with the title “Rewarding.”

Stay tuned as I figure this all out . . .