Star Struck Style

Yesterday, I published a post where I declared that I was going to take a deep dive into what Saturn symbolizes in my horoscope now that my second Saturn return is just a few months away. Today, I’m going to look into what Saturn in Pisces means in the natal chart. Here is what “Café Astrology” has to say about the placement of the planet:

“Saturn in Pisces is somewhat complicated given the vast difference in natures of the planet and the sign. You can feel uncomfortable with what seems to you to be excessive shows of feeling or vulnerability/weakness. However, by not fully allowing yourself these very human qualities, you end up limiting yourself. In truth, you will do much for the underdog, but you don’t feel comfortable feeling like you are one. As such, if someone extends you anything that even mildly resembles pity, you are quick to shut it down. In the process, however, you subtly convey to others that you don’t need kindnesses, compliments, and support, and you could end up feeling quite alone. You might also feel somewhat annoyed by people who seem to play the victim, or on another level, are too ‘out there’ with their spirituality.”

This interpretation makes me laugh because it describes me so accurately. As someone who is “annoyed by people who seem to play the victim,” I have been accused of lacking compassion. That is definitely not the case. I just don’t put up with bullshit from privileged people whose sole purpose in life is to make others feel sorry for them. I actually work for a charity where one of my roles is to approve financial assistance for people who actually need help. In the past three decades, I have volunteered thousands of hours of my time to support the same charity. I can see how I will “do much for the underdog,” and how I am not comfortable asking for help when I need it.

Yet the real nugget of truth in this interpretation how much I avoid showing anyone my own vulnerability. Sure, I may end up “limiting myself” by not allowing myself “these very human qualities,” but I don’t see that changing soon — even during my second Saturn return. Nevertheless, stranger things have happened. My Chiron return a few years ago awakened a sense of compassion in me that made me a much kinder person.

The interpretation for this natal position goes on to mention that people with Saturn in Pisces “may be more adverse to the use of mind-altering substances than most.” I’ve lost too many friends to substance abuse to dispute that conclusion. My generation was a druggy one. It’s interesting to note that kids just a couple of years younger than me were part of the “Just Say No” generation. They were born with Saturn in Aries.

As for what I should expect from my second Saturn return, I believe that the slow-and-steady growth Saturn tends to promote is indicated in the following passage:

“You may feel more comfortable offering tangible help and advice than emotional shows of support. You care, but find it hard to let yourself go on this level. In time, as you recognize how you may limit yourself and your experiences, you learn to identify with the vulnerable, messy, or chaotic side of yourself step by step, slowly but surely.”

I would not be surprised if I did finally learn to identify with my “vulnerable” side throughout the upcoming year. At this point in my life, however, I’m just not sure what purpose it would serve for me to “let it all hang out” after I’ve spent a lifetime ensuring that “it” is neat, orderly and tucked away where no one can see it.

But before I explore that topic, I need to look into what Saturn’s placement in the fifth house symbolizes in my natal chart. More about that tomorrow . . .