Something weird happened this morning.
I got up around 5:00 AM, as is the custom (my cats are early risers and they were bugging me to get out of bed). Usually I turn on the TV and watch the news, or grab my tablet and check out Twitter before I even make coffee. For a while now, I’ve been in the habit of changing the channel to “Morning Joe” on MSNBC because I can’t seem to turn away from the shitshow that is American politics. But today I left the TV on the local morning news because I was in no mood to get riled up over something that has so little consequence in my life. Also, my Samsung tablet that I’ve owned for just under five years bit the dust last night.
So, instead of indulging in this routine that has been contributing to my current state of unproductivity, I told myself that I needed to change up a few of my less-desirable habits. Perhaps I could pay less attention to Donald Trump, Twitter and any other garbage that becomes my obsession while I have an electronic device in my hand.
I didn’t know if there was something in my chart that was contributing to the way I was feeling, but when I sat down to write a post for this blog, I stopped to have a look at what I wrote last year. It was Vladimir Putin’s birthday, and this is what I had to say about the event:
“Once again, I’m experiencing some political fatigue. I believe that I need to take a step back from all the bullshit going on as these power-hungry men attempt to capitalize on the blind stupidity of their followers. I need to worry about myself and where my life is going. I need to be more selfish. I need to be more like them.
There’s a new moon tomorrow on the doorstep of my first house. It’s a great time to end an addiction in order to forge a new beginning. I need to end my obsession with American politics and put all this bullshit that is wearing on my soul behind me.
Thanks, Vlad, for making me see that it’s time to move on.”
Wow! It’s as if I’m in the same place as I was last year on this day.
When I do look at my chart, I realize that the sun is square my natal sun at this exact moment. The same aspect would have been occurring last year on this day. Could that be the reason why I’m so eager to make a change to my routine? On astro.com, Robert Hand writes that “is a time of challenge and crisis. Very often this crisis occurs in the form of persons who are working at cross-purposes to your efforts. They may or may not oppose you intentionally, but the thrust of their actions forces you to prove that what you are doing is worthwhile.”
Perhaps this aspect makes me see what’s wrong in my life. The same thing has happened two years in a row, so I’d have to be a fool to not notice how it’s affecting my state of mind.
Anyway, I’ll take it. I’ve got a new job, I’m feeling good about my health, I’m paying my bills, etc. I’ve left behind some things in my life that were not “worthwhile.” If that’s what this sun square does for me, I should be grateful that it recurs a couple of times every year.
Now I just need to figure out how it affects me when it happens on the other side of my chart in April, from my sixth house instead of my twelfth. Maybe I’ve blogged about it and I already know the answer. It’s time have a look in the archives . . .